Please Allow me to Re-Introduce Myself

It is so easy to move through life. Day after day we live our lives in habits, cycles, and patterns. We make our favorite morning tea or coffee. We prepare ourselves and our families for the day ahead. We work, we play, we live. We keep moving forward on our spiritual paths.

There are times though when we need to pause, take notice, and recognize ourselves. Our awakening processes offer us checkpoints to do just that. Those moments when we are asked to acknowledge who we are at this time in our lives and what it took to get us here. 

I have entered one of those times and am being guided to make an inventory of my spiritual life. Spirit and soul want me to re-introduce myself. Take stock of what I’ve experienced during my spiritual awakening and allow it to shape how I show up now. 

Spiritual Awakening. 

I don’t know exactly when my spiritual awakening process started. For a while I attributed the beginning to an astrological natal chart reading I had in 2019, but I know better now. It likely started a couple of years before. 

For years I had been seeking change in both my personal life and my career. Neither were fulfilling and I was miserable. Thoughts of my soul’s purposes were not yet part of inner conversation yet which was very negative. At the time I didn’t know what I wanted or needed. I didn’t know myself well enough to know what I wanted, so I only sought change. 

I realized my spiritual awakening process in late 2020. The blog, which started out as support for my coaching practice, reflected the first posts about spirituality in early 2021.

My first post about spiritual awakening was in February of 2021. I was still trying to develop a coaching practice, but it wouldn’t be successful, at least not materially. I know now that soul and Spirit had another plan for me. 

Since my awareness of my spiritual awakening process, I have been blessed to experience some amazing things. I have had an abundance of mystical experiences, healing, and growth.  My spiritual life has sustained and fulfilled me ever since. 

My Breast Cancer Journey. 

In March of 2021 I was diagnosed with breast cancer. My life, as you can imagine, changed to accommodate my health challenges. And so did this blog.

My posts shifted into documenting My Breast Cancer Journey. I wrote about the Lessons of the Week. What I had learned and what was getting me through. I wrote about the experience of cancer and the choices I made.

I wrote about my cancer journey full time until September after my radiation therapy ended. Then I wrote something much like this post, a way to pause, reflect, and celebrate. [LINK]

My Breast Cancer Journey pages are still some of my most popular posts. That makes me both sad and grateful that I was able to share my experience. Love and light to all who find those posts. May your prognosis be good and may you heal quickly and fully.

YouTube Channel. 

As I continued to heal from cancer my spiritual awakening began to expand and grow. I had so much to say so I started a YouTube channel to say it all. 

I see myself in those early videos, chest still bandaged after radiation therapy, and remember how hard that felt at the time. I was so uncomfortable in front of a camera, but my drive to share my experiences was stronger than my fears.

Both my YouTube channel and this blog became about spirituality full time. The coaching practice closed and I became a full-time writer and content creator. It was great, but what I had to share was purposeful, even before I understood what my purposes were. 

Psychic Gifts. 

I had been having spiritual experiences since December of 2020, and a year later I started writing about developing psychic gifts. I had begun to channel messages and healing energy. I needed to share it and stand in my truth. Much like I am doing now in this post. 

I began to evolve quickly. Writing and making videos allowed me to focus my awareness and process what was happening for me. All of it served a purpose. 

With the coaching practice now closed, the blog growing organically over time, I decided to shake off the old. I “unbranded” myself from the coaching persona I had developed. My life became about my spiritual path which then kicked into a higher gear. 

My intuitive abilities were being developed and my clair senses were being realized. And there was so much going on that I didn’t talk about yet. Mystical and psychic experiences were happening more frequently than I wrote about. Most of it was kept to myself. 

I couldn’t imagine that people would believe the psychic experiences that I was having. There must be some part of me that still believes that because I still don’t share all the mystical spiritual experiences I have. Maybe one day I will share it all.

Healing Blockages and Clearing Karma.

Blockages in my chakra were being identified, cleared, and healed. My throat chakra was first, it had past life blockages that were still impacting me. In the years since that discovery, all of my chakra centers have been cleared, healed, awakened. Some of them multiple times. 

As that process moved forward, my intuitive abilities were becoming stronger. I made videos about connecting with our intuition and our claircognizance. I sincerely wanted everyone to be able to experience what I had been experiencing. All the while knowing that it was not everyone’s path to do so. 

This path of clearing and healing blockages within my energy body continues. In recent days my throat chakra was cleared and Spirit sent healing energies. This time it was past life energies, abuse that had covered my mouth and closed my throat. The clearing and healing allows me to fulfill my purposes.

As we all do, I had karma to be cleared, and I began writing about it in the middle of 2022. I shared the process that Spirit guided me through to clear my own. It is so important and surprisingly easy. And oh, so valuable. 

An Awakening within Awakening. 

I see my awakening process as a spiral in both experience and in time. As I move forward the speed quickens and the experiences become more varied. That includes awakening processes within my spiritual awakening. 

In 2022 I experienced a kundalini awakening and Part 2. Since then, it has expanded, been recharged, and expanded again. Kundalini healing has been one of my favorite things about my spiritual awakening.

This is another one of those things I wish everyone could experience. The healing power of our kundalini is extraordinary. If our spiritual awakenings are about healing ourselves - body, mind, heart, and soul - kundalini is the upgrade. It is the most powerful self-healing I have experienced.

Mediumship. 

Shortly after my kundalini awakening, I began to understand what it meant to experience mediumship. I had likely been experiencing it for a while before I understood what mediumship was. 

My first experience with mediumship was with my cats. It was lovely and so healing to have them back with me. Then my parents and other family members came through. For a while there was also Medium School that helped me attune to the frequency of the souls that were coming through.

My most viewed video on YouTube was a story about mediumship. My gifts had receded. I was unable to experience mediumship. I thought it was gone forever and I was guided to share that experience.

Every mediumship experience for me has been healing - body, mind, heart, and soul. It has allowed me to receive what I needed to receive from relationships with my family in Spirit, and heal the traumas that I had been carrying. It has been one of my favorite experiences during my spiritual awakening and I am grateful that it continues to help heal me. Mediumship has made me a better person.

Energy Healing. 

After the healing that came with my spiritual awakening, kundalini awakening, and mediumship I found that I could channel healing energy. I began to share channeled healing on YouTube. 

It felt purposeful to help people heal themselves. Once again, I tried to create a spiritual career. My thought was that I experienced so much and I wanted to share that experience.

Not only did I try to monetize my channeled healing abilities, but I also tried to be a spiritual consultant. I tried hard to support myself financially during my spiritual awakening, but nothing worked. I had to remember that rejection meant protection and re-direction. I was meant to focus on my spiritual path. 

Only recently did I receive the message that some of us that are awakening are not meant to work during our awakening process. That was true for me. I have struggled financially during my spiritual awakening. It has allowed me to develop my faith and my manifesting abilities. And, in truth, I was always provided for. I had everything I needed. Sometimes in ways that seemed miraculous.

My Sexual Awakening. 

I’ve experienced many things during my spiritual awakening. Much of it I kept to myself. For years I experienced a sexual awakening without telling a soul. I told no one, until I wrote about it on this blog in November of 2022. 

My sexual awakening has been one of the most unexpected experiences of my spiritual awakening. I didn’t know they were a thing until mine started. And in my life there was a lot to heal from and grow into. 

I wrote My Sexual Awakening series in 2024 and gave it a dedicated page in 2025. It was one of the most challenging things to share. I am both modest and private, so it is unlike me to share my sexual life. It was challenging and also fulfilled a purpose.

Finding My Soul's Purposes. 

In 2023 I began receiving messages and guidance around my soul’s purposes. I began to understand that I had many purposes and that I had been fulfilling them without realizing. Once I recognized the pattern and how it worked, I wrote the first series, Finding Your Soul’s Purposes, in late 2023.

My spiritual awakening continued for the next couple of years. I learned more and experienced more. In each of these areas I have described, I went deeper. Cycles opened and closed. I became aligned with the version of me my soul came here to be. My purposes were revealed and fulfilled over and over. 

I began writing my second soul's purpose series in early 2026. My understanding and awareness had evolved, and it was time to revisit How to Find Your Soul’s Purposes. This series will have its own dedicated page soon. 

Quantum Jumping and Heart Awakening. 

In 2024 I began to experience quantum jumping. Timeline shifts had been happening for me for a while, but quantum jumping was new for me. The jumps helped me align with the energies and experiences I need to continue my spiritual awakening process. Which included more heart awakening. 

During my spiritual awakening my heart has awakened a few times, including recently. The depth of healing astounds me each time. My capacity for love and light increases each time. 

Soul Integration. 

My relationship with my soul, and with myself, is one of my favorite things to come from my spiritual awakening. It has allowed me to realize and fulfill many of my soul’s purposes. And it’s the basis of my relationship with myself. 

Most recently, I have experienced soul integration. Which also comes in waves and levels. At first, I didn’t know what “soul integration” meant so I asked my soul. From what I understand it’s when we’ve healed so much of our shadow that we are aligned with the version that our soul was sent here to become.

It feels so good - soul integration. It feels like us and our higher self working as one, being one. There are fewer thoughts and less ego to push back on the soul and intuition. Life flows more freely and smoothly. At a time when so much in the world feels so wrong, it’s great to feel so right within my inner world.

The Exploring Spirituality Blog.

On this blog I have documented my spiritual awakening process, explored spiritual and mystical experiences, and processed all of it through the writing of these posts. 

I have written around 400 posts since August of 2020. Each is a record of my spiritual experiences, life experiences, healing, and growth. And in some ways a record of my writing ability. 

I have posts about trusting this process even when it’s hard. I have posts about my many transformations. I have posts about my connection with my soul. It truly is the cure for loneliness. I have posts about almost everything I have experienced during my spiritual awakening.

My name is Nikki DeForest. I write about what I’ve experienced in my spiritual life and the spiritual wisdom that I’ve accrued during my spiritual awakening process. This is how I express myself internally and externally. This blog is one of my purposes coming to fruition.

This post though, and each story, feels like a life review, a spiritual life review. Breakthroughs always come after reviews such as this. Maybe this new era, this new year, this re-introduction is my new beginning.

Connection and Gratitude. 

Connect with me on Facebook, Bluesky, and LinkedIn. I share links to all new blog posts on Mondays, most Fridays, and anytime I have a channeled message to share. 

Remember to bookmark the Exploring Spirituality main blog page. I invite you to come back soon and often. 

I’m grateful you’re here. I love you. Thank you for being part of my spiritual journey and soul's purpose.

Be well, beautiful human and soul,

Nikki