Everything was beautiful. I was flowing through life. I was enjoying
my life. It felt so good, and I felt more alive than I’ve felt in a while. It
was Julie Andrews singing and running through the Alps level of alive. I was
loving life. Then I was placed in a challenging situation that tested me.
At first, I didn’t know what was happening, but once I got
out of my head and stopped overthinking, I knew I was being tested. My
emotional and energetic resilience was being tested. My intuition confirmed it
strongly for me, and I twiggled at Costco on Saturday morning.
While waiting for the train to go to Costco, I became
anxious of the people around me. I was on high alert and my body was tense. I
did what we women do in that situation. I kept aware of my surroundings; my
head was on a swivel. The train tracks were in front of me, and I made sure
that I was aware of what was behind me. The train arrived, I boarded, and felt
safer. But that was only the initial spark of what was to come.
The train is a place where spirit and I like to work, and
this trip was no different. After a short while of overthinking, I started
analyzing the emotions and energy of the situation at the train station. It
wasn’t my energy. I was picking up energy from the environment and the people.
I was carrying other people’s anxiety, fear, hopelessness. It felt awful. I had
to let it go.
I began releasing the energy with intention, but it wasn’t
enough. I invited Spirit to release the energy for me. That helped. My body
began to release the tension that had built up at the train station. By the
time I got to Costco, I knew my emotional and energetic resilience was being
tested and my intuition confirmed it with a twiggle.
I knew then that there was more work to be done. Part of it
was to settle back into my own energy…in Costco on Saturday morning. It was a
challenging task for my sensitive and introverted self, but I know how to do
this. So, while I was looking for strawberries and salads, I was releasing
judgement and affirming compassion. And while selecting “free and clear”
laundry detergent, I was reminded to be gentle with myself. And while moving
through the crowds only to find very short checkout lines, I expressed gratitude.
Once home, there was more work to be done. I found myself
taking out anger and rage on a kitchen wrap package that was stuck and not
allowing the drawer to open. I pulled and tore at the package to dislodge it
from the drawer, trying not to scream. After freeing it, I took a few deep
breaths to calm myself. A few moments later, I put the battered package back
together with tape and staples and relocated it to the pantry and away from the
drawer. I then acknowledged the releasing of the anger and rage. Even though in
the moment it felt like an irrational response, releasing those intense emotions
felt so good.
Throughout the day, I received numerical synchronicities with
messages of alignment. I stopped and asked if the anger and rage was in
alignment with my soul. My intuition answered “yes” with a twiggle. I thought
about it for a while and received understanding. The anger and rage were
authentic emotions that needed to be expressed and released, and that was in
alignment with my soul path. Who knew that raging at kitchen wrap could or
would be in alignment? Not me, but my Aries Sun is happy for this wisdom.
Later that day, I realized how short this test was, this
cycle of growth. I had entered it, acknowledged it, and released it within
hours. I’ve become faster at turning these tests into wisdom. They used to take
weeks. I’d suffer through them and grow slowly, but I’ve matured emotionally
and spiritually. I now recognize the growth opportunities more quickly and move
through them with wisdom and experience. I guess that’s why my spirit animal is
the grasshopper. I never miss an opportunity for growth.
I love that our personal and spiritual growth builds upon
itself. These cycles of growth and change become easier, and faster with wisdom
and experience. We learn to move through them with greater wisdom as it becomes
available to us. It’s likely why our spiritual awakenings pick up speed as we
navigate them. When we know better, we do better.
Maya Angelou is credited with saying, “Do the best you can
until you know better. Then when you know better, do better.” That sums up
growth nicely. It can happen anywhere, anytime, and it is nothing more than
knowing better and doing better. Growth doesn’t happen when we are blissfully
prancing on mountain tops, but sometimes it happens on a Saturday at Costco.
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I’m grateful you’re here. I love you.