Shifts and Changes

There are times when I know just what to write. Inner work or spiritual growth often provides ample inspiration. Sometimes I have material to write multiple posts in a week. This is not one of those weeks.

This past week has been heavy. I have been moving through some challenging energies and in a challenging environment. It’s all been a little much and I’ve gone deep into self-imposed isolation. To add to the yuck, I’ve been in pain. Leftovers from cancer and treatment.

The messages I’ve received are all good. The big shifts and changes have come to fruition. I’ve moved through a “breakthrough” and “re-birthing” process and have successfully come out the other side. But it has left me…empty.

I have learned much about myself through the shifts, changes, breakthroughs and re-birth. And yet, I feel discombobulated. I’m no longer the old version of myself and not yet the new version. I’m in the in between for the second time since July.

I’m left with the feeling that I’ve spent more time shifting and changing than being. My life feels like shifting sand beneath my feet. Moving constantly and with no firm foundation.

My desire to rebuild my life is a constant drum beat in and around me. My desire to push forward is quelled by my soul’s need to allow it to unfold for us. I am changing within, and stagnant without.

I know that all of this is temporary. In the coming days my energy will shift and change again. Eventually my life situation will change and become when it is meant to. At some point, in the future, I will begin to feel like myself. And this new version of me will begin to feel comfortable.

Our spiritual awakenings bring so many changes. We heal and grow. Our energy shifts and changes over and over. Cycles open and close over and over. These are the times when we need to practice patience and compassion for ourselves.

The good news is that autumn is almost here. It’s my favorite time of year. That hasn’t changed about me. I pray that I will take long walks among brightly colored trees.

I wonder where my life will take me next.

It’s Labor Day in the U.S. I am pro-labor. In the fight against fascism, I have made my stance known. May all the protestors be heard and arrive back home safely.

I’m grateful you’re here. I love you.

Be well, beautiful soul and human,

Nikki