Is My Spiritual Awakening Complete? Am I Done?

A hand releasing a butterfly into a blue sky.

Another New Phase.

Another blog post and another new phase of my awakening, but this feels different. I knew I was entering a new phase when I felt in between energies. I call it the in between. It feels like a void. I’m not yet fully in the new energy and no longer the old energy. It just feels weird, awkward, and discombobulating. I used that time to rest and take care of my energy knowing that all would be revealed in Divine and perfect timing.

Then I received a clairvoyant message that I understood was a threshold. I was in and narrow threshold and was being squeezed through it. After that and while channeling with Spirit the energy work became intense, almost painful. It felt like I was being reborn. Everywhere I went I saw butterflies and dragonflies, as they flew in nature and in imagery. Both are symbols of transformation. I received their messages with gratitude.

The new energy felt awkward and uncomfortable. I did what I knew to do and practiced a lot of self-care and self-nurturing. When my head would start to spin with thoughts, I reminded myself gently that all is well and in Divine and perfect timing.

A few days later I received another message about being in a new cycle or phase. I knew that and was taking great care of myself as the energy work was still intense. It didn’t dawn on me that the message was repeating because I wasn’t receiving the message as it was intended. I thought I was experiencing another growth cycle, like many before.

Then I was given a message in meditation, an idea for a new project. I was guided to rewatch the video that helped me understand my spiritual awakening. I’ve written about it before because it was important. The video is called The 6 Life-Changing Stages of Spiritual Awakening [Which One Are You In?], and was created by Christina Lopes three years ago. As I write this it has 2.9 million views on YouTube. Wow.

The Early Stages.

By the time I first found the video, February 2021, I was in Stage 3, the dark night of the soul. I don’t remember when Stage 1, the wakeup, happened for me. I do remember being sick of my own shit and ready to change. That must have been me waking up, but I have no idea the date or the year. I felt like there must be something more to life for a long time, years.

Stage 2, bliss, I remember clearly. It was autumn 2019 when I realized that I had the power to change my life. I was reading badass books and feeling like one too. I smile when I think about how naïve I was. I had no idea what I was going to experience in the coming years.

Both Stage 3, the dark night, and Stage 4, the void, happened for me over and over. I experienced many of these as cycles. They were the highs and lows of shadow work and healing. They felt like a rollercoaster. I don’t like rollercoasters, but I do like doing the inner work and healing. 

Where Am I Now?

It’s been a long time since I looked at the stages, so when I was guided to them I knew it was important. I found my journal from when I first watched the video. I wanted to read what my thoughts were at the time. The next day after watching the video for the first time, I was hoping to be in stages 5 and 6. I had no idea what was coming, but Spirit did.

Christina Lopes calls stage 5 “Groundedness”. It’s about growth and becoming spiritually and emotionally mature. The need to escape negative energy decreases as resilience increases. I recognized that phase. I have been experiencing that in recent months. I wrote about increasing my resilience in a blog post. I had passed through stage 5.

There are only 6 stages. That meant I was currently in stage 6, purpose and life mission. That’s what Spirit was guiding me to understand. My notes on stage 6 read “gone through the journey”. Spirit was telling me that I made it through the worst and was now ready to move on towards my soul path.

Once I became aware of my situation, I received another message. A celebration. Spirit was sending me party music. It felt like my spirit team was having a party in my head. We played loud, fun music while I cooked dinner that night. They were celebrating my completion. My spirit team has only celebrated once or twice before, so I knew this was big.

I realize now that I did it. I “saw it through”. I honored the commitment I had made to myself. You would think that I’d be ready to celebrate with them, but I wasn’t. I had been receiving synchronistic messages of alignment with my soul purpose for weeks. I am solidly in stage 6, aligned with soul’s intention and purpose.

I’m still not ready to celebrate. It feels so unreal or maybe I’ve just experienced so much that I’m just a little nervous about calling it “done”. I have been growing, shifting energy, healing, and having the most amazing experiences…done?

No doubt the next phase of my life will bring its own growth, energy, healing, and challenges. This time I will be ready to face them from a more healed place and from a place of higher consciousness. I don’t feel “done”. I don’t feel complete. I feel like I’m just getting started.

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I love you.

Be well,