I am beginning to emerge from my dark night of the soul. It
takes time. It’s not like being shot out of a cannon at lightning speed,
landing on my feet and being ready to go. The feeling is more like waking up
from a long nap, emerging slowly and still groggy.
Going with Flow, Whatever that Meant.
The dark night, hermit mode phases of life are challenging
for me. But this time I leaned into self-care and rest. I accepted the
situation for what it was, an intense pause, time to rest and integrate. I allowed
myself to do nothing somedays. Other days, if I felt like it, I made myself
busy. Whatever the moment brought, I went with the flow.
Allowing the pace of my life to unfold for me rather than
forcing or chasing made this phase easier. There was ease and grace most days,
most days, but not all. On the days when ease and grace were not available, I
spent time working on my mindset, or resting, or whatever the day called for me
to do or be. I reminded myself over and over again to go with the flow.
There were days that were challenging. Some days were a
rollercoaster of emotion. Those were the days that I gave myself grace, spent
time processing emotion, and surrendering to spirit. The energy would cycle
through emotions for releasing and then healing. Things from my past came into
awareness, situations that I hadn’t thought of in decades. All in the name of
One evening I watched a film that inspired an emotional
response that surprised me. I was reminded of something that happened to me as
a child which in turn brought up larger wounds. The energy is old, but it was
still their lurking about in need of healing. I spent part of that evening
crying the big tears of release and doing the work to release it. It was
exhausting and very satisfying to let it all go and ease back into flow.
Releasing energy has been a big part of my spiritual
awakening. I’ve done the work, meditated, received energy healing, spent time
in nature, and moved my body. I’ve done all of that and more. But the single
biggest practice has been releasing energy. Releasing the energy of our ‘old’
thinking and way of being to make way for the ‘new’.
One day this past week, I was inspired to create a video for
my YouTube channel about releasing energy during the full moon. I knew then that
I was coming out of the hermit mode, the dark night of the soul, when I
received that inspiration. I knew then that I was moving forward again.
Inspiration has come and that’s an early sign that life is
once again moving forward. And with that inspiration, I breathed a sigh of
relief. My life is beginning to return to whatever normal will be now. I’m
I’m still in that groggy just waking up stage, but I am
waking up to a sunny day.
Today's image is from Canva.