Spiritual Awakening and Relationships

When I look back on my spiritual awakening process, I can discern one major theme - love. More specifically relationships. During my awakening every relationship within my life has been explored, healed, and changed.

My relationship with Spirit was explored and healed first. I learned to trust Spirit and trust the process. It became the foundation for my spiritual awakening process.

Second was my relationship with myself. In truth, prior to my spiritual awakening I had no relationship with myself. After connecting with my soul I learned to love myself again and to nurture my needs. And that became the foundation of my relationships with others.

Personal and professional, familial and generational, past, present, and new, all relationships were explored during my awakening process. Each brought healing and a new understanding of what it meant to love.

My spiritual awakening allowed healing, and growth of all relationships. Each exploration building on the prior one. Each necessary to a healthy connection with the next. Each allowing me to move forward towards healthier relationships of every kind.

Relationship with Spirit.

The most important part was learning to trust Spirit and my awakening process. I had to learn that there was something in this world that I could trust. It wasn’t easy. It took practice.

Through my early mystical experiences with Spirit, I learned to be open to and to allow what was happening. Each new experience frightened and intrigued me. Often it was my curiosity that kept me coming back to Spirit.

I learned to trust the synchronicities and messages that appeared in my awareness. Each one brought meaning that I learned to decipher and then act upon. Over time I learned to trust Spirit and the guidance I was being offered.

My awakening exposed me to Spirit in many forms. Each one guided me through a new experience. Each time they were gentle, kind, and engaging. With each one I learned to trust a little more.

When I became frightened I pulled back and asked questions. But when I questioned too much, my process slowed. Too many questions meant I was not trusting. That push / pull energy was how we set the pace in my awakening process.

We moved forward at a pace that was both comfortable and a little scary. My curiosity kept me coming back as did the extraordinary experiences I was having. The path was pulling me forward.

Learning to work with energy and receiving downloads. Working with energies that felt like the human connection I had been deprived of for many years. Learning to connect with various forms of Spirit. In time I learned to trust all that was happening for me.

The first thing I learned about relationships during my spiritual awakening was trust. I had to learn to trust. Learn that trust was possible and that some were worthy. It became the basis of all my relationships. 

When my sexual awakening began it became the bridge between learning to trust spirit and creating a relationship with myself. It was all new and so beautiful. Without the trust that I had co-created with Spirit my relationship with myself would not have been possible. 

Relationship with Self.

As my awakening process moved forward, I learned to trust myself. I had been emotionally shut down for so long, I no longer knew what my needs were. In this era of my awakening I was co-creating a new relationship within myself. A relationship with my soul. 

I will always remember the moment I met my soul. I was soaking in a hot, salty, lavender filled bath. Headphones filled my awareness with meditation music as candles flickered at the edge of the tub.

I heard a voice, not in the room but within my awareness. At first I thought it was Spirit. One of the candles began to flicker brightly and for a moment it seemed to be speaking to me. I felt a strong, loving presence. I called her Flame.

In the days following we began to connect more frequently. To communicate more effectively Flame and I co-created a language. A twitch and wiggle combo in my body, a twiggle, meant “yes”. Flat, blank energy meant “no”. 

With yes / no questions we began our relationship. Soon I learned that she was my soul. I began to rely on our intuitive communication to make choices and guide me forward. She was, and continues to be, the foundation of my relationship with myself.

It was through my soul, my intuition, that I began to live my life more fully. I began to understand what I needed, wanted, desired, and loved. I began to value myself for the first time in my life. I learned to prioritize my needs.

We began to explore everything. Every aspect, every detail of my life was explored through the lens of my soul. In time each step of my life was guided by my soul, my intuition. We were creating a soul-based life and one that I loved. 

One area we explored continuously throughout my awakening process was deeply connected intimate relationships. My sexual awakening allowed me to learn to co-create resonant relationships. I learned to connect with love - body, mind, heart, and soul.

My soul, Flame, my intuition, guided me back to myself. She showed me who I was, what I loved, and the life that I truly wanted to live. One of spirituality, love, peace, purpose, creativity, beauty, and deep connection with others. 

Through my relationship with my soul, I learned to forgive, accept, and love myself. Soul taught me to flow with Spirit. My relationship with myself became the bridge to my relationship with others.

Then I had to learn to end the illusions that had been created to teach me about relationships. I learned to let go of attachments and surrender all expectations. This was one of the most challenging times during my spiritual awakening. It was also one of the most important as I moved forward in my process and towards new relationships.

Relationship with Others.

My spiritual awakening process expanded throughout the years to include relationships with others. I met my family in Spirit and, through mediumship, healed generational trauma and closed karmic cycles. I learned to forgive and heal past relationships.

Spirit sent me members of my soul family. I learned about relationships that cross generations and spiritual beliefs. We connected deeply and learned from each other about spirituality and resonant relationships.

My interactions with both, family in Spirit and soul family, healed my heart. They expanded my capacity to love, to forgive, to release judgment, and develop relationships. 

The more I healed the more I realized that I had long been detached from family. I healed from my own family but had not lived in one for many years. I doubted my ability to navigate those relationships. Spirit, of course, had an answer for that. 

My awakening process began to dismantle all that no longer resonated. My life was being deconstructed. I became unhoused this year and I found myself living with a family I had not known. I was grateful to have been saved from living on the street even when family life was completely unfamiliar. 

My soul, my intuition, and I began to navigate this new life situation. I learned, healed, and grew through each misstep and each conversation. I allowed it all to be part of my awakening process.

I experienced rapid healing, growth, and expansion during this time. I learned to take nothing personally and developed resilience. I learned to let people have their own experience in the world and I learned to walk away. I learned to honor my spiritual path and honor my own needs within sometimes chaotic family dynamics.

I learned to protect my peace and set boundaries on my energy. I learned how to navigate multiple relationships each with their own unique needs and requirements. I learned how to stay neutral in conflicts that were not mine. And I learned how to walk away from unhealthy relationships without assigning fault or blame.

I learned that only I can fulfill my needs. Only from my own fulfillment can the needs of my relationships be fulfilled. I learned that each partner is responsible for fulfilling their individual needs and that is the foundation for a healthy relationship.

I learned to release judgment and see the Divine love and light in each person. And I learned to see my own Divine love and light. I remembered to forgive myself and others. I remembered to give grace.

Spiritual Awakening and Relationships.

Each era, phase, and cycle of my spiritual awakening process taught me something, often many things. It was a multi-layered and multi-dimensional expansion and growth process. Most of it centered around love as expressed through relationships. 

I believe the meaning of life is love. What we love, how we love, who we love, and that we love. And when you think about it, what are we if not our relationships? 

Our relationship with Spirit, our relationship with ourselves, our relationship with others, all define who we are and how we impact the world.

Our spiritual awakenings are healing. They expand, elevate, and change us. They allow us to explore love and all of our relationships. With Spirit. With ourselves. With others.

Spirit is love and our spiritual awakenings are about love and relationships. 

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I’m grateful you’re here. I love you. May all your relationships be fulfilling.

Be well,

Nikki