Reviewing My Life Through Mirrors

I had been intuitively guided to a tarot reading. As I am from time to time to help provide me with guidance and awareness. It was a message just for me.

As I listened to the reading, I was sensing messages that were not part of what the tarot reader was saying. My awareness veered off into the true message of that reading.

My life is about to change, but there was more to learn about what to leave behind and what to take with me. I started taking inventory. Not externally, but internally.

It became a sort of review. A way of acknowledging my growth during the current phase of my life. Often a last step before moving forward.

I started reviewing the inner work that I had been doing lately. All the old energies that were coming up for processing and releasing came to mind. Then, later that night it struck me, everyone around me represents an energy that I am leaving behind.

Each person in my current life situation represents something that I have healed within myself. An energy, behavior, or belief system that I worked through during my spiritual awakening.

My spirit team was holding up a mirror in front of me. Showing me past versions of myself. They were trying to get me to acknowledge my growth.

Through that mirror they were showing me how much I’ve healed. Showing me the new version of myself and how much I am ready to move forward. My spirit team showed me that I am ready for my karmic blessings, breakthroughs, and new beginnings.

Mirrors into My Healing and Growth.

The one who lacks self-love and self-care. That was me and for most of my life. Self-love, and with it, self-care were major themes in my awakening process. In my current situation there is someone who struggles with it. They are a mirror for me. They remind me how far I’ve come. They represent fulfillment of a soul purpose, self-love and self-care.

The one who tries to control and suffers. That was how I lived until I healed. Trying to control outcomes and suffering when they didn’t work out was painful. I healed this part of me by ending illusions, releasing attachments, and surrendering expectations. It was one of my greatest challenges. It reminds me how much I’ve healed and grown.

The one who sacrifices their needs for everyone else’s. You can’t pour from an empty cup. I know that now, but for many years, depleting myself was my norm. I used to give and give and give of myself, my time, my energy. All of it at the expense of my own health and wellness. It took me many years to learn how to put my needs first so that I could serve those I loved from a sense of wholeness. I learned to fill my cup and give from my abundance.

The one who is faithful and yet finds no peace. For years this was my experience. I would pray from fear and desperation. And find no peace. The world around me seemed hopeless. My current experience is quite different. I learned that my worries and fears are illusions. I learned to release them and return to peace. I learned to be grateful for what I had and for what I needed. I learned to co-create my life experience with my spirit team. I learned to find peace in my faith that all my prayers and affirmations had been heard.

The one who carries anxiety. Recently, I’ve been moving through the last vestiges of the anxiety I carried for years. It once had been so ingrained within my daily life that at first, I didn’t realize that it was old energies coming up to heal. I no longer carry anxiety. The parts of me that used to carry it, have healed. I no longer identify with it, and my wisdom knows how to release it and move forward in peace.

The one who works rather than lives. This is what I used to do. For decades I buried myself in my work rather than deal with my misery. There was part of me that couldn’t face the life I built. Instead of changing, I worked. And then I burned out, twice. I could no longer continue that old path. I changed my life. My spiritual awakening changed my life. Now I flow through life with a beautiful balance.

The one who isolates. For most of my life, I had no one that saw me or heard me. My family was neglectful, and I isolated myself from them. As a child I read, sometimes, a book a day. As an adult, I was either focused on work or made excuses to be alone. Even during my spiritual awakening, I was in full on hermit mode. This too is something I have healed from. Now I seek connection with those who see me, hear me, appreciate, and respect me.

Each of these people, these mirrors, represent an aspect of myself that I am ready to leave behind. They represent experiences that were, for me, unhealthy and required healing. Their being in my life now is a mirror through which I see how much I have healed and grown.

With that awareness, I am ready to move on. I am ready to move out of my spiritual awakening hermit mode, and ready to create an entirely new life. A life that is co-created with my spirit team. A life that is created from my wholeness.

This is the kind of life review that happens before big life changes. I feel recalibration coming. An end to my current situation is coming and I am being prepared for it.

The preparation includes awareness of my healing and growth. Awareness means that I can move forward with new intention. It means that I have overcome my shadow and wounds. It means that I am ready for the next phase of life.

I am vibrating at the frequency of the next phase. I am vibrating at the frequency of my dreams and wishes. I am aligning with, co-creating, and manifesting karmic blessings, breakthroughs, and new beginnings.

A Mirror into My Soul.

To help me vibrate higher, I took a break from writing and went for a walk in the backyard. The sun was warm, and the air was calm. The recent monsoonal rains changed the desert and the yard felt alive.

In the desert, in the middle of summer, there were butterflies, dragonflies, and ladybugs. There was new growth poking up through the desert dirt. Bright flowers were everywhere.

I received all of Gaia’s medicine. The transformational energies of butterflies and dragonflies. I received the ladybug’s good fortune. I breathed in the new life. I soaked in the beautiful flowers.

As I walked back to the house, I noticed an inchworm had hitched a ride on my shirt. I held up my finger for it to step onto. Then I placed the little worm on a big leaf on a big tree. It reminded me of the infinite possibilities of life.

It was magic. A high vibrational moment that I celebrated with gratitude. It felt like a mirror was being held up to my soul and I saw Divine love and light.

Gratitude.

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I’m grateful you’re here. I love you.

Be well, beautiful soul and human,

Nikki