Mysterious Tears and Purification

It was the heaviest energy I had experienced in a long time. I felt low and was crying for reasons that I didn’t understand. The energy enveloped me without revealing what it was or where it was coming from. My head started overthinking, but I knew to shut it down. The solution wasn’t in my thoughts.

I sat in meditation and allowed the tears to flow, knowing that the release was needed. I didn’t know what I was crying about, but I knew I had to allow the energy to be released. There was no way I was going to allow this energy to settle in and stick around like old trauma. I was going to do whatever it took to release it. I began to release the energy with intention, but I continued to cry and feel the weight of the mysterious energy. I needed more help.

I surrendered to spirit, and asked for release of this heavy, dense energy. “I surrender to Spirit and open my energy body. I ask that Spirit release any and all energies that are ready to be released.” The relief was almost instantaneous. I then expressed gratitude for the love, support, protection, and guidance that I received. I repeated this process every time the mysterious tears appeared, and until they stopped.

After a few sessions of surrendering the heavy energies to spirit, I received intuitive guidance and synchronistic messages. I was being cleansed. “Purification” was the word I was given. I understood that the heavy, dense energy was coming up from depths within me. It was being brought to the surface to be released. I had done everything that I was supposed to do.

I felt it and released it. I allowed it to flow through me and not get caught or trapped in my body. I allowed it to be released. And, when the energy was too much for me, I asked for help from Spirit. It all happened the way it was supposed to happen. I had to feel it to heal it, and to release it so that it was no longer a part of my life, my body, my energy. I was in alignment with my soul path.

Then, I rested and nourished myself. For a couple of days, I slept and took naps. Once rested, I began to replenish my energy. I spent time in one of my favorite places, the Denver Botanic Gardens. I meditated and allowed the beautifully curated nature to soothe and heal me. I spent time doing the things that encouraged lighter, more peaceful, and happier energy. I made healthy meals and allowed myself to be guided to indulge in some comfort foods.

In hindsight, I can see that I’ve entered a new phase of healing, or of my awakening process. There is a purifying of my energy happening. I’m not sure what that means exactly, but it feels so good, and I’m always grateful to move forward.

Since this purification process began, I feel stronger and lighter than I’ve felt in a long time. I am disconnected from the little things that I used to suffer through. My heart is lighter than I can remember being since I was very young. My inner peace is more constant and more fully. The cycle is complete and I’m ready for another round of healing.

And now, I feel another energy coming in, big, beautiful energy. I feel changes coming. But again, I don’t know what energy, or changes are coming. I just feel big changes coming. It feels beautiful, exciting, and full of unlimited possibilities. And I know that I will be able to enjoy those changes and navigate my way through them. I got this.

The image today is mine. The dew on the flowers reminds me of my tears and the beautiful flowers remind me of my healing and purification. 

I’m grateful you’re here on this blog and on this journey with me.

I love you.

Be well,

Nikki