Admitting the Truth to Myself.
It’s time for me to admit to myself that this spiritual
awakening has turn my life upside down and has shaken me in a way that I don’t
yet know how to recover from. Not yet at least.
The things I used to care about no longer resonate. The
business I planned, and loved with my heart and soul, I no longer care for. I
had such high hopes and dreams, but now my heart isn’t in it. I dreamt it, but
now I’ve changed and the dreams I had a few months ago seem strange and no
I’m in what I call the “in between”. No longer anchored to
an old version of myself and not yet fully in the new version. It’s
disconcerting. There’s no sense of time and little light at the end of the
tunnel. But I’ve been here before and am finding ways to cope.
I am grateful for the messages I receive from my Spirit
Team. They are encouraging and always timely. The messages, however, say
“soon”, or “changes coming”. And, like all things spiritual, time is
But those messages don’t exactly answer my questions. Where
does one go when we feel lost, unmoored? What do we do when our life no longer
makes sense even though we created it with love? What do we do when the path
forward is indistinguishable, unknown, ambiguous?
These are some of the ways I cope while I’m that in between energy.
These are the practices and focuses that I use in this energy of the unknown.
I surrender. I surrender doubts and fears to my
Spirit Team. I surrender to the flow of my life. I connect with my higher self
and let go of control. It releases the tension as I release the illusion of
control. And, if I repeat as needed, it calms the thoughts, that if left
unfettered, that can become anxiety.
I nurture myself. I care for myself as I would a
loved one experiencing the same emptiness, confusion, and ungroundedness. I spend
time wrapped up in my own arms. I treat myself to my happy places, comfort
food, lots of hugs, and whatever else I need.
I focus on what I can control. So, no matter how
uncomfortable it is, I’m going to focus on what I can control. And that is my
mindset. I’m choosing to take advantage of the opportunity and rest, meditate,
and do everything I can to have a positive mindset so that I’m attracting the
best into this next phase of my life.
I choose to see the opportunity. I’ve learned that
this “in between” phase is an opportunity for rest, and manifestation work. I
give myself time to figure out what is next. I make to time imagine my future,
feeling to the desires I have for my life, creating the energy I want to move
I practice gratitude. Always, no matter what situation
or energy I find myself in, I practice gratitude.
And I wait…as patiently as possible and doing what I
can to support the energy of patience.
The in between space can be oddly quiet after a busy
awakening, but it can be a time of rest and of focusing on what we want to
create in the future.
These phases have happened before, and they are all
uncomfortable, but they aren’t permanent. I know I’ll get through it with a lot
of self-care, self-nurturing, and self-love.
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