It started a couple of weeks ago, a countdown of synchronistic
numbers and then uncomfortable emotions came to the surface. I took the bait
and dove into the emotions to better understand, process, and release them. I
was ready to heal.
My cycle of healing is familiar because it’s happened over
and over during my spiritual, or as some say, consciousness awakening. I’ve even
blogged about it before in Part 12 of my cancer journey posts.
The part that I sometimes don’t know is what exactly is
being healed. Sometimes I’m healing an old emotional wound and other times it’s
just unhelpful energy that is ready to be released.
Sometimes I don’t understand what’s being healed while I’m
in the process, and the healing shows up later as a new perspective, or an old
trigger that no longer sparks an emotional response. I have to admit I love it
when I realize that I’ve healed a part of me that used to hurt but is now an
integrated part of my being without the reactivity.
This time is no different. It was time to heal and this time
I was ready even if I didn’t know what’s being healed. I allowed myself to be with
whatever was coming up and I offered no resistance. I allowed myself to feel
what needed to be felt, move my body to shift energy, cry to release the
energy, and lots of self-care support the process.
I woke up today feeling better and my energy is a little
lighter, healing is occurring. Synchronicities of repeating 1s and 8s tell me
that I’m nearing the end of a cycle. My intuition tells me that this healing
cycle is almost complete. I’m relieved, it’s been an emotional couple of weeks.
The Healing Process.
Late one night last week, I was
called to write about my healing process in a way that I can share. I hope this
helps you navigate your healing. Use it as a guide but adjust for what feels
right for you.
The Situation, aka The Trigger.
We react, maybe we overreact to a situation or an emotion. When we see it, when
we recognize our reactivity, when we recognize our overreaction, it’s ready to
heal. Feel it without judgement and allow it to be.
Gently Investigate. Get
curious, ask questions to gain a better understanding of the situation, and
most of all be gentle and refrain from judgement. We don’t need judgement and
it will block our healing. Here are some questions that may
help investigate the process.
is the emotion I’m experiencing?
am I really expressing?
does this serve me?
can I reframe this situation?
is a new story that serves me better?
What Do we
Need in This Moment? Do we need self-nurturing, emotional release, time in nature,
solitude, socializing? Take action on self-care. Be intentional with self-care.
Do what we are being called to do to help the healing process.
Wound. We will sometimes know what the wound is by the trigger or by the
reactivity. Face it, this is our chance to heal it. It may need processing, reframing,
forgiveness, or a new perspective. Journaling serves us by being a place or way
to work through and process the wound.
the Process. Allow and honor the process of healing. Allow whatever comes
up in healing and trust that it is part of the process. We are worthy of healing.
We are worthy of clearing the unhelpful energy. We are worthy of being healed
and being whole.
We Will Know
When We’ve Healed. We will feel lighter and may feel more inner spaciousness.
The overreaction will subside, and we will become less reactive overall.
Healing feels messy when we’re in it, and beautiful when it’s complete. We are
worth feeling healed and whole.
Some of the
language sounds dramatic and healing can sometimes feel dramatic. It can also
be a slight reframe of the situation that shifts the energy.
You can do this.
Be brave and loving with yourself. You got this.
Outside, a Cancer Journey Update.
As I am still
healing from breast cancer, my husband and I prioritized our flu vaccines this year. We talked
to our pharmacist and made plans to get the shots last Friday evening. The
pharmacist mentioned that we should get our COVID
boosters as well. After being reassured that it was safe to receive both at the
same time, we got both flu vaccines and COVID boosters.
I was a little concerned
about the impact both would have on my body, but it worked out well. Saturday
was all about healing from our shots. I had a little chest congestion, a sore arm, and fatigue, but they were mild. We rested, stayed hydrated, massaged our
sore arms, supported our immune systems, and healed.
Sunday, we went
for a long walk, 3.2 miles, doing errands in our neighborhood. We were both impressed
that my body could handle it. It’s proof that my body is healing. I am so
grateful to my body, mind, and soul for healing. I really am healing inside and
Healing is possible
for all of us. With intention and without judgment, we can heal our wounds and
clear out the unhelpful energy that is holding us back from the life we are
meant to have.
The picture is
mine. It’s autumn on my kitchen island.