This time last year, I had just finished radiation therapy. My skin wasn’t healing yet as the impact of the radiation continues to worsen two weeks after treatment. I was physically drained from the treatment schedule, and from the radiation. My days were spent caring for both my emotional and physical wounds. Although much of my treatment was completed, I had many months of healing ahead of me, both emotionally and physically.
This year is about getting back into health. I can now take long, fast walks. I can now spend time in nature. I can do the things I want to do by myself without worrying and wondering if I have the energy to do so. Most of my healing, both emotional and physical, is behind me now.
I also have experienced another year of spiritual awakening. My spiritual path is clearer. My psychic talents are continuing to develop. My connection with spirit has deepened. I live a spiritual life.
Both the breast cancer and my spiritual awakening have changed me. The things that were important to me in the past are no longer are important. My life has been flipped upside down and around in the best possible way. I needed time and solitude to figure out who I am now and what I wanted to do.
My head and my heart couldn’t agree on my path forward, so I waited for clarity. I used to live exclusively by my head, or rather IN my head. My thoughts were all that mattered to me even if they were unhelpful. My awakening has taught me that I both need and want to live my life by my heart and from my heart.
I’ve given myself time to understand the desires of my heart and what I really want to do in life. Moving out of my breast cancer phase and into a new life hasn’t been easy, but it’s what I’ve needed to move forward in my life. Patience and gratitude have helped me through the challenging parts.
I feel like I’m moving out of one phase of my life and into another. I don’t have everything planned and strategized yet, but I am almost ready to move forward with my career. I’m looking forward to this next phase of my life and what it may bring.
The picture today is mine from a long walk yesterday. It represents what I feel like. I am beginning to see the sun again.