Finding Inner Peace

This week I had one of those moments that brings clarity about how much I’ve changed. My spiritual awakening has changed me in ways that I’m just now discovering. I started noticing it a few days ago and I’m only now processing it.

Currently, my life situation is filled with chaos and drama. In the past I would have been wrapped up in it and dragged down by it. But not anymore.

I no longer get pulled into my mind’s stories or chaotic situations. My energy is no longer impacted by other people’s energy. I no longer have expectations of how things should be. I no longer operate in the old ways.

I know where the changes stem from. It was the months of inner work and releasing energies of illusions, attachments, and expectations. Months of tears and rage and releasing disappointment have allowed me to be at peace in chaotic situations.

The illusions, the made-up stories that used to run in my mind aren’t there. They don’t repeat and if they start, I carry the wisdom to end the illusions. I know illusions aren’t real and don’t matter.

Unhealthy attachments that I’d form with people or situations no longer happen. I don’t approach relationships or situations with that level of attachment. I can remain true to myself and in my own energy.

I used to have expectations for everyone and everything. My expectations were the basis of my disappointment. That is no longer the case. I have learned to go with the flow and let things be what they are.

Through my inner work, I set myself free of the illusions, attachments, and expectations. I have broken those habits of thought and mind. I have released those behaviors and healed those parts of me and shadow.

When I feel myself beginning to create a story, an illusion, or attach in an unhealthy way, set expectations, I know to stop myself. I have ways to end that unhealthy thinking. I have the tools now.

One tool is an intention. I center myself and say, “I end illusions, release attachments, and surrender expectations.” Sometimes it is one of them, but often it’s all three. It is also part of my daily prayer and affirmations.

I can also just let it all go by declaring, “It is what it is.” For me this feels like acceptance of what things are and a release of all illusions, attachments, and expectations.

Another way is to remind myself to accept the current situation. If I am unhappy with the current situation, I can change it. If I can’t change it, I accept it and then release the energy that is holding on.

The affirmations are powerful because they demonstrate my awareness of my past unhealthy behaviors and thought patterns. They also allow me to shift my energy and affirm a healthier mindset.

This means that even when I’m surrounded by life’s challenges, I am calm and centered. I can move through life with more ease. Move forward without illusion, attachments, and expectations. I move through life with love, wisdom, and abundance.

With this new healed version of me I feel like I am handling challenges better. I feel unflappable. Able to go with the flow of major life changes while still being myself. And it feels like a superpower.

The suffering of my past is gone. The suffering of the stories and illusions that used to occupy my mind are gone. The suffering of unhealthy attachments is gone. And expectations are out the window.

All those things were a sort of a lie that I told myself. None of it was true. They were thoughts that occupied my mind. But they meant nothing other than the meaning that I gave them.

All of it was replaced by inner peace. Suffering is a thing of the past. I see suffering all around me. But it is not me. It is no longer how I operate. I have changed in deep and meaningful ways.

I’m so very grateful for my spiritual awakening. I used to suffer horribly within my own mind and with thoughts of my own making. Healing and ending illusions, attachments, and expectations was painful. Living it was even worse. I experience life differently now.

I have compassion for people who suffer with their own thought patterns. I know their worries and fears are painful for them. They feel real for them. Their suffering feels real to them. I remember. I did for most of my life.

I am aware of it now. I have healed those patterns. I now have strategies to work through those old thought processes. When they come up, I know how to move through them and into a better mindset.

I have found lasting inner peace. This is a blessing of my spiritual awakening. And what a blessing. I am grateful.

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I’m grateful you’re here. I love you.

Be well, beautiful soul and human,

Nikki