An Evolution of Faith

My spiritual awakening began before I knew what a spiritual awakening was. Once I received awareness of this new path, my life began to change. My spiritual life emerged, and my faith evolved over time. But first, there was fear.

Fear Before Faith.

Early in my spiritual awakening process, I remember being in awe. Spiritual experiences began to occur, and they seemed to be magical and special. I was in awe of the things that were happening.

There was also fear in learning about myself and looking at my life. I cried and learned to be brave. I allowed the experiences to happen even when I didn’t understand them.

There were times when I was afraid of the experiences. Unsure of the source. Unsure of the meaning or their purpose in my life. There was fear before faith.

Curiosity and Questions.

Then I began to understand that this was Spirit. They were teaching me and guiding me through these experiences and through my spiritual awakening. I learned to be open to what was happening. I learned to allow the process to happen.

I became curious and asked many questions. I began to question everything. Spirit answered many of my questions but not all. The questions they didn’t answer taught me that there were things I wasn’t to know. Not yet.

I accepted and learned about Divine timing. Eventually I learned to temper my curiosity and allowed myself to experience spirit and my awakening more fully.

Trusting the Process.

As I moved along my awakening path, my experiences began to evolve. I learned about healing - body, mind, heart, and soul. I learned about connection and love.

I learned that the path, my path, was to heal and learn to love and be loved. It wasn’t something that I learned in my human life. I had a lot of traumas to heal from.

Spirit guided me through the healing process. It was slow in the beginning. The cycles of healing took months and years. The work was both painful and beautiful.

In time I recognized the patterns and cycles of healing. It was then that I became an active participant in my healing. I learned to trust what was happening for me.

Trusting the Path.

Trusting the path was part of the process. It didn’t come easy for me. I cried and prayed for things that weren’t meant for me. I was still holding on to illusions, attachments, and expectations. I was suffering. Growing from those ego-driven thoughts occurred much later.

The growth and the healing became more intense. I faced my shadow and sorted through the most painful experiences and emotions of my life. At times I held on with everything I had. And then I learned to release the energies.

There were times of quiet and dark. During those dark nights of the soul, I felt alone and separate from my spirit team. I didn’t know they were always with me. I didn’t yet understand or have that kind of faith.

In time I learned to trust the path. For me that meant continuing my awakening process even when things seemed quiet and dark. I learned that it was part of the path. And I learned to trust it.

Surrendering.

At some point on my spiritual path, I learned to surrender. It is an act of faith, but I didn’t see it that way. It was just part of my spiritual awakening process. Another step on the path.

When I began to surrender things started to flow. I learned that by letting go and letting flow, the path was easier. Struggling became something that was unnecessary.

I accepted the experiences and the growth along my spiritual awakening path. I recognized that the growth I was experiencing was creating a better life for me. And my path and process became smoother.

When I began to see the blessings that arrived by surrendering, it became easier to do. I recognized that I had been blocking blessings. Surrendering meant allowing all to happen for me. Then I realized that surrendering was an act of faith.

Realizing Faith.

Not having a spiritual or religious background, I didn’t understand what faith was. And then my path, my spirit team, and myself decided to investigate what faith meant to me.

To me faith meant to believe in things I couldn’t understand. Letting go of fear was helpful. Questions weren’t needed or helpful. Trusting and surrendering to my spiritual path was faith in action.

In one of those aha moments, I realized that I was already being faithful. My actions were of faith. Trusting and surrendering to my spiritual path was an act of faith.

I didn’t search for faith. It happened for me over time. My faith was naturally cultivated through my spiritual awakening process. It was something that I realized rather than struggled with or chose.

Faith as Practice and Foundation.

Now my faith is more of a practice. It is something that I cultivate and protect through my daily practices, mindset, and actions.

I practice my faith by surrendering to my path and process. I live my faith by being patient and compassionate with myself and others. I express my faith by trusting and following my intuitive and Divine guidance.

My faith is also expressed every time I reach out to my spirit team to ask for help or clarity. By talking with spirit, I am expressing my faith that they are there listening and responding.

It is my faith and trust that allow me to flow with the energies of my life. My faith allows me to be at peace. At peace with myself and my life. My faith is the foundation of my life.

My faith has evolved over time. It evolved and grew with me through my spiritual awakening. And now my faith has become an integral part of me and my life. My faith is my foundation.

Faith and Our Path.

I don’t know how people come to their faith. I imagine some are raised in faith from a young age. Some seek and find it during traumatic life events. For some it comes and goes and comes again. For others, like me, it is a realization that comes naturally and over time.

Our faith, no matter how it comes to us, is integral to our lives. The ability to trust and surrender is how our faith is expressed. Faith is how we commit to our spiritual path.

Faith is how we move through life’s challenges. It is how we receive love and find clarity. For many of us faith is the foundation of our lives.

Gratitude.

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I’m grateful you’re here. I love you.

Be well, beautiful soul and human,

Nikki