We Don't Grow in Comfort, Ugh

There’s a phrase that has come into my awareness often as of late. We don’t grow in comfort. This past week has demonstrated that idea for me as I pushed through my judgement and feelings of disgust for my current living situation. On the other side of it was a cleaner kitchen and more empowered me.

Finding Gratitude.

When I first arrived at the boarding house, I was in a state of shock. I was disgusted by the filth and judged the people who lived here for letting it get this way. I felt sorry for myself and thought I couldn’t sink lower.

Fortunately, I found gratitude. I began to be grateful for the roof over my head, the comfortable bed, the food in my makeshift pantry and in the refrigerator. My daily gratitude practice expanded to include my current living situation. And, in the weeks since I’ve been here, I have come to accept my current situation.

With gratitude and acceptance, I was able to step into my power. I bought cleaning supplies and began to clean the spaces that I used and the areas of the house that needed it most. With my sleeves rolled up I began to tackle what I used to judge. My energy began to soften and I began to grow.

Getting Over Myself.

After giving parts of the kitchen a deep clean one morning, I realized something about myself and about the situation. I had finally gotten over myself. I don’t know how to describe it other than to say I got off my high horse and got to work. 

Instead of judging - I took action.

Instead of complaining - I stepped up.

Instead of suffering - I did what I could do given the current situation.

I grew through my uncomfortable situation. Rather than allowing it to drag me down, I let it expand me. I set the intention to become more comfortable in the situation and then followed my Divine and intuitive guidance which then led me to grow and step into my power.

Part of me is trying to judge myself for a seemingly elementary step forward in life, but there is another part of me that is accepting that I am maturing emotionally. I’m reminding myself that all growth is good, whenever and however it happens.

One thing I like about myself is that I am constantly learning and growing. My spiritual awakening has been challenging but it has afforded me a stream of constant growth. It has fulfilled my need to continually improve, learn, and grow. 

Stepping Up With Help.

This week has taught me to step into my power in a way that I had not realized before. If I don’t like the situation, I can change it. I’ve always known that but for some reason I was not applying it to my current living situation. I needed a reminder.

Maybe this week was Spirit and soul reminding me that I have power even when the situation is less than ideal. And maybe this week, I just needed a little extra support from Spirit and soul to grow and to step into my power. Whatever the reason, I can now use the kitchen without feeling completely grossed out and I am grateful for that.

I wondered what other situations in my life I could apply my power to, and so I asked Spirit and soul. “Does this mean I can step into my power and change the course of my life? Can I step into my power in terms of my path?” The answer was a prompt and resounding “no”. 

I wondered again, “Why am I not able to change my life or change my current situation?” The answer again was prompt, “spiritual awakening is different”. 

Spirit and soul have a path designed for me. A destined path that I am not allowed to change, or able to change, at this stage in my spiritual awakening. Acceptance and surrender are the way forward. Faith and trust are the way forward. 

I know that the life we, Spirit, soul, and I, have been building is the life that I want to live. The life I have dreamed of. The life we have co-created.

Each phase or cycle of my spiritual awakening has brought its own challenge. Each time I have been stretched, grown, and expanded. Each has been uncomfortable, some more than others, but that’s why it is said - we don’t grow in comfort. 

Connection and Gratitude. 

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Be well, beautiful soul and human, 

Nikki