Then Suddenly, Clarity

A vintage looking photograph of a woman. The perspective is from overhead looking down at her. She is looking up into a bright light and wearing big round goggles with big black lenses. Her hands are near here goggles, and she is focusing on what she is seeing. It's almost as if she is seeing into the future.

Monday, shortly after publishing, the energies came in strong. Downloads, activations, and sharp pains in my head. At first I thought nothing of it, but then a short while later it all came into focus. I came into focus for what seemed like the first time in many months. 

I was on LinkedIn checking my feed, when I saw a post for a spiritual lifestyle expo. The spotlight was on one of the exhibitors who works with the soul. I don’t know them or what they do but I was immediately struck.

Connecting with our soul and fulfilling our soul’s purposes resonate with me deeply. That kind of work is the fulfillment of my soul’s purposes. Do I want to develop a platform? Do I want to develop programs and put myself out there? Is that part of my path?

I was still asking myself questions when I received a notification. Someone thought I’d be a “good candidate” for an accounting and finance job in a technology company.

I began asking myself different questions. Do I want to plug back into the corporate matrix? Can I still do that work? Do I want to do that work? 

I sat for a moment with all those questions swirling around in my awareness. Instead of thinking it through, I felt it through. My awareness went inward towards my body, heart, and soul instead of upward into my mind.

Within moments I had answers.

I love my soul purpose work, but I don’t feel the desire, nor do I have the drive, to create a platform. I have a vision of me working with people and guiding them through the process of connecting with their soul and purposes. But the vision isn’t like the one I saw in the LinkedIn post. That doesn’t resonate.

The corporate matrix was not the answer for me. I have deconstructed that part of my life. I have healed the trauma that I experienced and healed from burning out twice. I no longer have the desire or energy for that kind of work. It no longer resonates.

Then suddenly, clarity.

In a flash of Divine magic, I remembered the vision I had for my life. It was the life I desired before this year of deconstruction happened. The life that I truly desired came into my awareness like a gift. It resonated still after all this time and all of this year’s challenges. 

The old vision for my life is once again the current vision for my life. I can’t remember the last time I thought or dreamt about it, but it is still the life I need, want, and desire. My dream life, the one I co-created with Spirit and soul, is still what resonates. 

I can see it clearly and remember the vision and dreams that I had. I can feel it and it still makes my heart fill with joy and peace. It must have been waiting for me to deconstruct what didn’t align with it until it peaked out from the depth of my heart, but it was always there.

For the first time in a long time I feel like myself. I feel like I’ve woken up to myself. I am at peace once again. I know the life that I want to live. The vision has returned and it still resonates.

At Last, Etta James, 1960. The song filled my awareness.

Then in the next moment a release and a flash of memories. All the moments this year when I almost gave up and veered off into a direction that didn’t resonate. All of the pressure from people around me to do what they thought was best for me. All the expectations I fought against. And every time I chose my spiritual path, my Divine life path, my soul’s path. 

To get through all that this year has brought and to come out of it with my soul’s vision for my life intact, seems like a miracle. Feels like a miracle. And an extraordinary relief.

The vision for my life never left me. It stayed tucked away while my life changed and I deconstructed what no longer resonated. Spirit and soul kept it safe for me. Like my mother’s jewelry kept safe in the box she kept in her dresser. Waiting for me to find it again. Be ready for it again.

I am filled with peace and joy, release and relief. I have clarity. I know what I need, want, and desire. 

Spirit and soul, how do we make that vision come to life? 

Connection and Gratitude.

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I’m grateful you’re here. I love you.

Be well beautiful human and soul,

Nikki