
Regression Before Self-Mastery.
It felt like regression. A deep cycle of review and purging had swallowed me whole. I was back in the midst of heavy, dense energies. My mind was assuming the worst and spiraling out of control like it used to do. I felt helpless and hopeless as my emotions flowed with my chaotic mind.
Financial burdens combined with the news headlines weighed heavily. Unnecessary harm and suffering weighed heavily.
Even though I tried to observe and not absorb, my thoughts took over. And with my thoughts spiraling, my emotions became dysregulated.
Then awareness came in like a sudden shift. I saw through the spinning thoughts and strong emotions. It had to end.
“That’s enough!”. I gave my mind a stern correction. “It is time to stop with the negativity. We know better now and can do better now.” My higher self had broken through the inner noise.
The spiraling thoughts ceased as my higher self took over. Within moments, my energy shifted. My body relaxed. My mind calmed. My emotions became regulated.
In my awareness I felt my higher self, my soul, rise into self-leadership. I perceived it as both awareness and as a sensation of energetic expansion and peace.
Then a scenario came into my awareness. A message from Spirit. From inside a bird cage, the doors swung open. I heard, “free”. I felt the energy of freedom and peace.
Intuitively I knew it meant that I was free from my undisciplined mind and dysregulated emotions. Free from a life governed by thought rather than soul. Free from what had held me back for so many years.
I was set free from my own mind. My higher self, in an act of self-mastery, had set me free.
Mercury Retrograde.
Mercury retrogrades often cause alarm, but they can be an opportunity. Each retrograde has its own signature. Some impact speech and communication more than others. Some impact travel and transit more than others. Some impact technology more than others. And some can remind us of who we are meant to be.
Because each retrograde has its own signature, and each of us has a unique astrological natal chart, each will impact us a little differently. In general though they are a time to do things that begin with the prefix “re-”.
Reflect, review, remind - these energies are what Mercury retrogrades provide. These periods of time offer us an opportunity to look back and learn. It is a time to reflect and review to remind ourselves of how we’ve grown and who we are now.
It's almost as if the retrograde says, “Look, see, and feel that. Does that resonate? No? Okay then, let’s process it and move on.”
The process provides an opportunity to think differently and to choose differently. It is an opportunity to see how far we’ve come and who we’ve become through life’s challenges, healing, and growth.
All that said, it’s not a magic cure. The work still needs to be done. The awareness still needs to open. We still need to be an active participant in our own healing and growth. If it resonates, we can use this time, almost like a liminal space, to solidify the version of ourselves we have become.
Setting the intention now for future Mercury retrograde opportunities will allow our spiritual team, our higher selves, our soul, to use them to our benefit. And sometimes, it just happens that way as our unique paths unfold for us.
While Mercury is retrograded, if it resonates, use the energy as an opportunity. A time to move forward by looking back. It won’t always be easy, but it may be the right time to reflect, review, remember, recognize, rewire, reconnect, rework, recreate, reimagine.
Re-Integrating.
The scene I saw meant that I had been set free. I had been set free from the cage of the mind. Free not because I fixed anything but because I knew how to manage myself. Self-mastery.
As I thought about self-mastery, my energy body opened wide and I heard, “fully integrated”. The inner voice was that of my soul. I knew it meant that soul integration had occurred, and I confirmed it intuitively.
The Mercury retrograde brought a review that allowed me to move through some intense thoughts and emotions. My higher self stepped in to manage my mind and emotional state. It was indicative of how much I had healed and grown. That growth allowed for soul integration.
Mercury retrogrades aren’t all bad. We can use them for all those “re-” words. We can use the time to heal, grow, and move forward. They are an opportunity if we let them be so.
Planetary energies - retrogrades, eclipses, conjunctions - are going to do what they are going to do. We may as well use their energies for our highest good.
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